ellipsis…

since i started a little play-by-play about the waiting game i’m playing with a letter that is suppose to arrive any second now, i thought i’d continue…

i’ve been thinking about what this next journey in my life is going to look like. or at least try to think of what it may look like. here…. or there. i was trying to hash it out in my journal this morning. what would i do if i stayed… really. i seem to have my purpose pretty well ironed out if i go to TO, but what is my purpose if i stay. i’m quite stumped at this point. i had flipped back to a journal entry i wrote after breakforth, i was writing about one of jill brisco’s talks about stepping out in faith. God will provide while you step, not before you step. it was something that she said during her talk. it was something that i chewed on the entire day. and then tonight i realized what it means to me right now. either way, staying or going, is a step of faith for me. i can honestly say that i am quite lost if i stay here in edmonton. i have no idea what is instore for me if i go to TO. it seems that everything happening in my life right now seems to want to play this waiting game with me. i am at the end of my human physical/mental capabilities and really only have God to rely on. i can’t see over the mountain… who am i kidding, i can’t even make out the freaking path. but i guess that’s what faith is.