ellipsis…

the funny thing about a quarter-life crisis is that you don’t have the wisdom or experience in life. which i guess is where the crisis lies. what to do? where to go? all of a sudden the benefits of being young, the freedom and vast opportunity, almost becomes a hindrance. all your life, all 23 years of it, you’ve been trying to become more independent, not letting anyone tell you what or what not to do. and now the very thing you want is to have someone tell you which direction to go. i realize that i have been in a crisis like this for the last year…. or rather three. not really knowing where i am actually going. some great ideas have come up, and yet not one of them seems just right by them self. my mind wonders, and dreams up some great career that one can only work at in his day-dreams. and in my case that could be my problem. i think way to far ahead of myself. i always hated it when my dad started talking about steps, a plan, a stradegy. steps…. uh, what a concept. steps to that dream job maybe. and when i get that, then what, is that it. and is that what i want. ah!

the saying goes, it’s the journey not the destination that matters. if i learnt anything from my italian and greek adventures is that statement is undoubtedly true. not only in traveling but in life. i’ve often wondered if i should have stuck it out in university instead of fast tracking in accelerated programs. did i miss out of the community that is developed within that atmosphere. the journey. the guys in the post below actually sparked that idea.

i think i am starting to appreciate the jouney i have been on lately. and realizing, maybe, that is what really matters. gallivanting around europe, drinking a latte across from a good friend at your favorite cafe, making stupid videos where the only purpose is to make other people smile. that’s what makes up life, right, i’m beginning to hope. maybe a quarter-life crisis isn’t really about figuring out what to do, but more of a kick-in-the-pants to live life, and appreciate it.

and through all that, still the nagging questions of where are you going? what are you striving for? and how are you going to get there? are still yelling as loud as they can.