ellipsis…

the gorgeous miss darla decided to play dress up for me this afternoon. it was so much fun! i’ve been wanting to do a fun shoot with her before she leaves to hawaii for a couple of months. here are some of our fun pictures!

thanks so much for putting together so many great pieces darla! have a great time in hawaii. take some great pictures with that new camera.

today was a fantabulous day! just gorgeous… sun shining super bright, spring right round the corner. today was the first time i could crack my windows in my rav. i had to do some running around for my store this afternoon, i almost just kept driving. plugged the ipod into the system, and felt the vibrations from the bass…. i turned up… yes i’m the little asain boy rocking out to lupe fiasco in my blue rav4.

kick push. kick push. kick push. kick push, coast….. oh man, so good!
met his girlfriend, she was clappin’ in the crowd
love is what was happening to him now
he said i would marry you but i’m engaged to these aerials and varials
and i don’t think this board is strong enough to carry 2
she said bow i weigh 120 pounds, now
lemme make one thing clear
i don’t need to ride yours i got mine right here….
so they kick… and push… and coast…

so good…..!!! listened to that all afternoon… heck, i’m listening to it right now…. i am SO excited for the summer. and road trips. road trips are soooo good!!! lov’em… wish i took a picture of today, it was just great. it really was.

Embrace the ambiguity of love and romance, and you’ll be able to find it in more places, more often.-mishah nicoli

ok… so along with my last post, i now have the overwhelming desire to shoot… i haven’t picked up my camera for almost a month now! i’m itching… really itching to get something done, out, new, creative, limit-pushing…. anyone what to collaborate with me…? something big, or small…. small meaning simple, not small meaning insignificant. i have a new beauty dish waiting for me at my shop. haven’t picked it up yet for some reason…. ummm need a stylist to do some insane, crazy make-up. ideas ideas ideas…. there is a reason i call this blog ellipsis and it’s not just because of my explanation in my about section. i tend to use a lot of them in my writing… (see another one) wow, i’m all over the place. i like it. i’m not so effing depressive like below. ummmm cupcakes…. let’s make cupcakes, let’s make models into cupcakes. pink with sparkles, or with polkadots. their hair can be the icing. kinda babydollish. ummmm i like it…. any takers…? no…. hey maybe we can even put a birthday sparkler on her head, that would be cool. maybe she’ll be in her birthday suit (ooooh, scandalist) still not takers?…. welcome to my head, there is always stuff like this floating around. most of it never gets out, which is a shame. ah, maybe more will start leaking it’s way out of my skull and into my camera.

i’m not quite sure what happened this week, but for the first time in my life i wanted to completely turn off the world. it’s an odd feeling, something that i would really not like to feel again. one of immanent implosion. i still feeling the affects of it. like there is someone sitting on my chest. and then there’s the feeling of constantly sinking constant anxiousness (sinking… well maybe not so much. the anxiousness could be the sitting on my chest thing too.) oh man…. i’m not a fan, not one bit! there has been some stuff that has transpired in my life over the last week, but even that doesn’t resolve this feeling. it really just amplified what was there, and brought me to a point of irrationality. another place i’m not a fan of. i’m so glad this week is almost over. i need a fresh week. blank. one hopefully without any of the residue of this past one. oh, and a good night sleep… one of those would be good too.

[update] so after a bit more thought, i’ve come to realize that most of what i am, or was, feeling is really just linked to my over anxiousness. waiting for something to happen, even if nothing is.